it is agreed that i am not born to be an artist. but i did a good job with the kitty dont i? i name it watermelon. HAHA.
i have not been sleeping well. last night i tried to sleep. first try was at 1am. what a mother F failure. second try 130am. work out well enough until 145.-.-" WOKE UP SUDDENLY. 3rd try was at 3am. whoaaaaaaa... 3rd try IS a charm. so i slept unitl 7 FREAKING AM. woke up. tried very hard to fall back to sleep. but no. i just had to be wide awake. so i called ariyadi. ahah. hes always the mangsa. sorry ariyadi. its a habit. so he was suppose to come over but sadly his dad had to use the transport. so :(:(:( nobody entertained me until 1130. i went down,ate breakfast watched tv until 11 dad called and told me to cook rice. so i cook the rice and rushed upstairs to take my bath. i might get scolded for being such a messy young lady. ok bare in mind i post this with an half awake brain. so i dont think my sentences make sense.
so i studied hard today. i study study and study. i drank 5 cups of tea and 1 cup of coffee. i feel genius today.haha.
so far its been a good day. my daily mood swings is not here to attack me today :) im peaceful

so i guess thats all la. haha. no depressing post. my mind dont think much today. i have aggregates and sieve analysis to think about.
X

im on holiday.yeay yeay one week off from walking under the hot sun :)
but this holiday i have loads to do. the amount of words and works that i have to endure is just painful but never the less i love my sunday afternoon nap. today i slept for 4 hours and had a fantastic dream
i woke up and text stalk ariyadi. although he refuse to reply me cause he insist he have other life besides me haha i will not give up.
so last two thursdays when we were having dinner in unimas,i saw this amazingly HOT boy from cempaka dorm. OH MY WAS I EXCITED. i did what a checky girl did. flip my hair and stared. and i think he noticed cause i saw him looked at me. HAHA. yes that was my bimbo moment. hes hot so hot. now everyday i shall eat at cempaka just to see him.
oh hot sexy boy,how i long to see yoy again.HAHA. kenja

panda eat,shots and leaves.that has been the sentence of the week. oddly i find it amusing however some people find it not funny. i do it with action so instead of laughing at the phrase, people laugh at me. hehe i know i know im not the smartest people alive but i like to do silly actions. hehe

so i dislike this guy who post sad silly and annoying status in his facebook.like common "guy" we get it you have your girlfriend that might exist since you never talk about her. other people have their other half to but they dont post sad, lovely, moochy and weird things for their status. -.-" crazy. get a good happy life.
haha

fucking idiots im sick. at first i was just caoughing like you know throat itchy cause of eating spicy hot food. then i got hot. i thought it was just the weather but now im just cold and hot at the same town. and the throat is being just a bitch. its itchy way itchy. i hate you HAZE. :(

its 12 and im still in last night's clothes. i have not taken my bath and my hair is like medusa. i love it. i feel sexy.
hahahaha.

i should be reading some tamadun asia shit but im so lazy. ive been sleeping and walking around the house the whole day. i get irritated easily and i talk a lot. i like to text stalk ariyadi but i dont do it today. its just not right.

anyways, ariyadi if you ever read this im sorry i rarely answer the phone call. its not that i do it purposely although sometimes i do but not always. hehe. i am not a phone type of person. thee phone and i is not always together. sometimes we are but i just put it on silent and forget about it. sometimes im just so lazy to answer calls. hehehe.so im so sorry if i abandon you. haha. :) ariyadi. i see you everyday. see you on monday

i forget what i want to blog about. HAHA. such grandma

dear zayy and jay lian,
I MISS YOU BOTH BADLY AND DEEPLY. i love you both to the core of my heart.
i wish i can do the love emoticon thing the picture of the heart thing, but ZAYY dont want to teach me. :( HAHA

its so hot im red all over like lobster. SO HOT THE HAZE GOING TO KILL ME. i take bath like freaking 4 times a day. not everyday since the schedule is not to my liking but if i get the time and effort to walk all the way back to my stupid 3rd floor apartment i would take bath 4 times a day. depending on my mood.
i have freaking a lot to do. i am scared. i know what im learning is basics and i should not complain. BUT I DONT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING. i mean i understand but the mood of studying always faeds away.

I SHOULD LISTEN TO CLASS AND START JOTTING DOWN NOTES (but im too lazy)

right now i should be studying freaking materials since im so left behind but i'd rather sleep or stare at the wall. staring at the phone wont help either. the boyfriend does not exsit anymore. private matters.

im having my daily mood swing this morning and it bugs the hell out of the technician. i dislike the technician. EEEEEE...

i should make more chinse friends in class....they are HILARIOUS AND FREAKING CLEVER. i mean it.they're awesome especially this guy name derek and hes hot too ;)

ok ive been onilne too long. and i've missed ariyadi's phone call twice. -.-"

i want to watch one tree hill one more time until my eyes pop out.i tried downloading it using torrent, limewire and some stuff steff told me about but sial la cannot.
im so so angry.one tree hill makes me happy. like gilmore girls.
i want to watch lucas and scott. -.-
i think i shall go kenyalang to buy the dvds. there goes my one month allowance.my allowance is suppose to be for food.but i think i spend it mostly on apparel,mainly shoes and silly stuff.this month alone i bought a blouse,a belt, a story book.... ok the list goes on.hehe. how am i going to survive.nasib la i study here.if not matila me.i wont be eating for the whole month.


so dramatic

i want to try again.downloading one tee hill is hard.cant it be easy like gossip girl ?

i don't feel like going to statics!!!
last week some stupid girl forget to off her phone and the lecturer made us put all our phones in front.not only for that day! FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING SEMESTER.
how am i going to text ariyadi to ask him to wait for me?
haish.
and and.
i feel lazy to take bath!
:(
i so full of issues.
HAHAH.

ok.i better get ready.class start in 10 mins.
ta