MELANIE

ever wonder when am i gonna finally be sad and show some feelings in real life?
well this is the time.
i hate today. no. that's wrong. i only started to get sad around 9pm.
fuck fuck fuck times a million fuck

the across the universe song is the cause of my sadness
. . . . .
im so sad. :(

. i never thought i be so stupid.
i know i was not suppose to trust you.
YEAH ESPECIALLY YOU.
now you're so far way
i was VERY happy with you
we were nothing. but you were something
how am i suppose to be happy.
no its not the distance
the problem is US.
you keep giving me false hope and i keep believing you even tho i know its stupid.
VERY STUPID .
your words are my food
i fall for it everytim
i know its going no where. i realize that ages ago
but i just need you.i tell you that everyday.
but you're so ignorant
you use to care but now, you're just so full of ego
i should stop. but i CANT
i hope i'll be over it. but for now all i think of is you.
well not all but yeah. most of it.
for a very short time. you know me more than anyone
you were there when i had my share of secret breakdown
that time you were suppose to be having fun. but i was not in a good mood and was having emotional problem so bad that you had sacrifice your happiness to help me.
and i was there when you had problems.
we would always have each others back . good or bad times.
i still need you.
i will always need you.
thank you


i hate emotional time. luckily i dont get it a lot.ok im not so good at exposing my feelings so yeah. laugh all you want.


If I'm to fall
Would you be there to applaud
Or would you hide behind them all
Because If I am to go
In my heart you grow
And that's where you belong

-oasis:im outta time-